The effect anxiety has had on my education is immense. You wouldn’t really think that it could affect learning so much but it really can. I know that it has affected other people worse than it has me but it has still had an effect upon me.
I am still managing to go to school every day which is obviously very positive but going to all of my lessons is a different story. I usually get to my lesson, ready to go in, and then stop. I can’t do it. I find it very difficult to get into lessons because I’m scared of what might happen. This usually lasts about ten minutes before I manage to force myself into the room. This sets me up to have a difficult lesson because I’m already anxious. Once I’m in lessons, I struggle to stay there. Everything becomes very overwhelming: the noise, the pressure, everything. The only thoughts running through my mind are about how I’m going to have a panic attack and I can’t seem to block them out. My heart starts to race and my breathing becomes shallow. I always end up having to leave my lessons because the panic has got so bad. I know I should challenge myself and try to stay but I find that lots of people begin looking at me which makes it even worse and I also think I distract people which isn’t really fair on them.
Since I miss so much of my lessons, I spend a lot of time catching up which is very stressful as I have to find a lot of time to catch up on every subject. This doesn’t help as it causes me so much stress onto of the stress I already have. Being unable to focus because I’m so anxious means that I can’t understand things or pick up concepts because my concentration is elsewhere.
I hate it. I used to be a straight A/A* student but I know these grades will have dropped. I mean, the drop won’t be huge but to me it’s significant. I’m such a determined person and I want to do the best that I can but I can’t do my best at the moment. That is the really frustrating bit because I really want to try so hard but anxiety just gets in the way when I try and work too hard. I know that I could do so much better than I am now and it just really hurts me that anxiety could have ruined my future. It sounds over the top but getting top grades is most favourable in jobs however, anxiety is hindering my chances of getting the top grades that I was getting before.
I’m trying so hard yet nothing seems to become of all the work that I did. Anxiety leaves me tired, stressed and unable to concentrate properly which makes learning very difficult. Nothing goes in and even if it does, I just can’t remember it. This is one of the main reasons that I have gone down because even if I do learn, I can't revise because I get so stressed. I also struggle going to exams because I can't deal with sitting in a room with so many people and not being able to leave. I also get very stressed around exams which makes me even more anxious so I can't concentrate or work as well as I should.
I just have no motivation sometimes because anxiety exhausts me so much. I just don’t see the point in trying because I know my best just isn’t enough. I have begun to accept defeat now with my exams but I know this isn’t the attitude should have but it’s been going on for so long now that sometimes I feel like giving it up.
I’m going to do it: I’m going to beat anxiety and get the best results possible which I’m sure I’ll share because I’ll be so proud of myself!
I am still managing to go to school every day which is obviously very positive but going to all of my lessons is a different story. I usually get to my lesson, ready to go in, and then stop. I can’t do it. I find it very difficult to get into lessons because I’m scared of what might happen. This usually lasts about ten minutes before I manage to force myself into the room. This sets me up to have a difficult lesson because I’m already anxious. Once I’m in lessons, I struggle to stay there. Everything becomes very overwhelming: the noise, the pressure, everything. The only thoughts running through my mind are about how I’m going to have a panic attack and I can’t seem to block them out. My heart starts to race and my breathing becomes shallow. I always end up having to leave my lessons because the panic has got so bad. I know I should challenge myself and try to stay but I find that lots of people begin looking at me which makes it even worse and I also think I distract people which isn’t really fair on them.
Since I miss so much of my lessons, I spend a lot of time catching up which is very stressful as I have to find a lot of time to catch up on every subject. This doesn’t help as it causes me so much stress onto of the stress I already have. Being unable to focus because I’m so anxious means that I can’t understand things or pick up concepts because my concentration is elsewhere.
I hate it. I used to be a straight A/A* student but I know these grades will have dropped. I mean, the drop won’t be huge but to me it’s significant. I’m such a determined person and I want to do the best that I can but I can’t do my best at the moment. That is the really frustrating bit because I really want to try so hard but anxiety just gets in the way when I try and work too hard. I know that I could do so much better than I am now and it just really hurts me that anxiety could have ruined my future. It sounds over the top but getting top grades is most favourable in jobs however, anxiety is hindering my chances of getting the top grades that I was getting before.
I’m trying so hard yet nothing seems to become of all the work that I did. Anxiety leaves me tired, stressed and unable to concentrate properly which makes learning very difficult. Nothing goes in and even if it does, I just can’t remember it. This is one of the main reasons that I have gone down because even if I do learn, I can't revise because I get so stressed. I also struggle going to exams because I can't deal with sitting in a room with so many people and not being able to leave. I also get very stressed around exams which makes me even more anxious so I can't concentrate or work as well as I should.
I just have no motivation sometimes because anxiety exhausts me so much. I just don’t see the point in trying because I know my best just isn’t enough. I have begun to accept defeat now with my exams but I know this isn’t the attitude should have but it’s been going on for so long now that sometimes I feel like giving it up.
I’m going to do it: I’m going to beat anxiety and get the best results possible which I’m sure I’ll share because I’ll be so proud of myself!