So your may have noticed that my blog has gone quite a long time without a post appearing and I have missed it a lot!
School has begun to take over my life and is top priority for me at the moment. I have recently had my mock GCSE exams which I have spent lot of my time revising for and stressing about! (I will have a post coming up about my exams and how to try and cope with them). I have also had a lot of coursework that has to be completed very soon that I am beginning to fall behind on so since my exams have finished, focus has completely been upon that as it is very important to me!
On top of all of this, I did not need the stress of having to run a blog, stay on top of posts and keep my twitter account running. My blog has taken a back seat but I want to get organised so that I can continue to run my blog as I do really enjoy doing it which has become evident by how much I missed writing when I was not doing it! It has made me realise that I need to plan ahead and stay on top of things if I want to keep this going.
Mentally, I’m not in the best place at the moment which is not ideal. My panic attacks have reduced slightly but general anxiety is on the increase and I am finding myself unable to function in daily situations because of the levels of anxiety I have been feeling. I have also struggled to sleep because of this and am getting very little sleep which makes me more anxious. In myself, I have been feeling very low. I have had no motivation to work or doing anything productive, not helped by being constantly exhausted! I’m beginning to feel numb towards most things, especially happiness and excitement which is making things more difficult.
Sorry that this post was a bit of a rant as I didn’t intend it to be but this is how it has turned out! (Also the fact that I’m writing this at 23:25 after being up since 6;30, staying at school until 5:30 and working solidly since I have got home hasn’t really helped either!) Some more, slightly more interesting, posts will be on their way once I get back into the routine of blogging!